From the first moment, it was an emotional roller coaster.
I applied to volunteer at the Southeast Texas Humane Society a couple of months ago because, as a dog lover living in a small apartment, I thought it would be a good way to get a little canine companionship at the same time I provided some diversion for the poor pooches in doggie jail.
Of course I knew that sometimes shelters can’t keep dogs they can’t find homes for -- but I didn’t want to dwell on that too much.
I was confronted with the reality almost immediately.
After I filled out the application, a worker told me to go talk to a couple who was out in the backyard walking one of the dogs.
Almost the first thing they said to me was that the dog they were walking was on the “short list” for euthanasia. If he didn’t find a home soon, his number was up.
I thought to myself, “I’m not sure I’m cut out for this.”
We sat for a time and petted the dead dog walking, who seemed oblivious to the danger.
As we walked him back into the kennel, we were met by a shelter worker who was bringing out a family to look at the dog.
I was pleased when the friendly mixed-breed greeted them politely. But when his attention wandered and he trotted off to inspect the smells of the fenced in run, I was concerned.
“Get back over there and look cute!” I mentally chided him. “Your life depends on it.”
Later, when I saw him back in his kennel, I asked a worker what had happened with the prospective adopters.
They were thinking it over, I was told.
I held my breath the rest of the time I was there.
Then word came.
They decided to take him.
Thank God.
I took it as a good sign.
Since then, I’ve gone back several times. Although it is always emotional, I try to focus on the happy endings, and not dwell on the sad.
Because not all the stories have happy endings.
That first day, I also spent some time with a female pit bull called Surrey.
Timid and fearful, she had obviously suffered terrible abuse.
She’d been dumped in an outside kennel at the shelter one cold November night.
Surrey flinched at sudden movements or sounds, but after some quiet stroking and soothing murmurs, she relaxed somewhat and seemed to enjoy the attention.
I was told that her chances of adoption were poor. Besides her fearful disposition, her breed was against her. People hesitate to adopt pit bulls because of their reputation for aggression.
But this dog clearly had no fight in her.
I imagined her belonging to an elderly lady with a soft voice and a gentle manner. Someone who would have the time to sit with her and pet her.
After having suffered the kind of abuse that would so completely break a dog’s normally boisterous spirits, it seemed unlikely that Surrey would ever make a complete recovery.
But I still wished for her some kind of healing grace – a life that would afford some solace to her broken heart.
It was not to be.
The next time I went, a few weeks later, she had been put down.
I accepted it, because I knew her prospects were dim. And at last her suffering was over.
Rest in peace, Surrey.